IN A RESTLESS WORLD LIKE THIS IS,
LOVE IS ENDED
BEFORE IT'S BEGUN
AND TOO MANY MOONLIGHT KISSES
SEEM TO COOL
IN THE WORMTH OF THE SUN.

These are some few lines fro a song that i have heard lately. the song is titled when i fall in love and it is by celine dion. i just have to know that though i do not like the song, those lines i particulary like coz they are just true... very true.

fool was he, who came to me and put his love in words
for love cannot be in letters or tunes that can be heard
love is in the eye, the sweet tremble of the hand
it is in a stolen glancethat both can understand
Love is not what you say, it is in the way you speak
the way your lips tremble, the way your knees go weak
so if you really love me, if your love is true
there would be no songs to sing, only the words I love you
Love doesn't express itself in the loudest cry, oh no
love is very simple i hear it when you sigh

BYWAYS AND BYGONE
AND LONEE NIGHTS LONG
SUN RAYS AND SEA WAVES
AND STAR AND STONE

MANLESS AND FRIENDLESS
NO CAVE MY HOME
THIS IS MY TORTURE
MY LONG NIGHTS, LONE

weird! have you ever thought about the journey of the sun? You know what is weirder? that everyday we witness a miracle, and yet never pay any attention to it. Everyday we witness the birth and death of hope, and yet we do not care. What a foolish race we are!! How have we become so indulged in our hidious and insignificant lives to the extent that we do not notice such a graet thing around us?! I mean that everyday millions and millions wake up in the morning and hope for a miracle to happen; they pray for something to add some meaning to their trivil and unworthy lives, but the day ends and the night falls and still there is no miracle, as they would think. they think that their wish has not been answered, yet, they never lose hope. They go to sleep and wake up the next morning with the same wish for a miracle to happen. Some peple never give up and die with the wish of a miracle. others, on the other hand, just give up and stop believing in miracles anymore. i find this sad.if only tose people took one moment , just one sole, tiny, meaningless moment to take just one deep and careful look around them, they would find their graetest wish is granted. They will find it in the birth of every new sun. They will find it in the death of every old sun. They waste this chance for a lifetime while all what it takes is just one careful look at one short moment. No, I confess. It is not that simple. To do this you need what most people of today lake. It needs faith, insightand most of all it needs time, even if this time is only one moment. Actually, to be honest, this is the main and real reason. A minute in these timesis too precious to waste. People cannot afford to lose a minute for someething....what is the word... unworthy, like witnessing the sunrise or the sunset, they would say. They do not know that the whole meaning of their existance may depend on this moment that they refuse to give because they are too arrogant to think that the meaning of their whole lives can depend on one minute. Am I out of context here? Maybe, but they are all journes.


last words
the journey has not ended yet and this is only the begining.

Wierd! have you ever got the stressing feeling that you want to say or do something but when the time is rightyou just can't? Well, this has happened to me today. I was watching the Mediterranean while the sun was going to its final destination. I had a lot of emotions. I remembered how silence can be the most expressive thing at all. I enjoyed the feeling of closing my eyes and listen really hard and hear.......nothing actually; i could hear nothing. it was as if the whole universe stood still. it was liek as if everything was contributing in a silent worship. it was more like a prayer that came from the deepest point of someone's heart. It was a moment of unquestionable faith, a complete faith and nothing else.
I have never felt this safe, maybe not through my whole life. I could never think that I caould enjoy silence this much. I even stopped breathing, afraid to disturb this magnificentand unbelievable moment. I wished to stop my heart from beating even if this ment to die; actually maybe this would be great, if i could do it. I mean, what is more great than to die during a complete moment of silence? I wished for it by my whole existance but my wish was not granted, God knows why!!!!!!!! Anyway, during this moment all kinds of ideas came to me. I thought about all different kinds of journeys: the journey of the sun, a journey of an ant, a journey of a child and reached one conclusionin each and every journeythat every journey must have an end, it is sad i know but what can i say? I am a sad personor maybe a sad girlfacing a moment of truth or ......... a moment of silence!!!!!!!!